Quickie II

hello people, tomorrow is a friday and then it’s the weekends! how time flies. felt like i just came back from penang though it’s been 2 weeks. i wanted to say so much but then my draft was somehow eaten up. by wordpress. gahh. angry face. cos now i can’t remember or write it the same way again. blehh.

that aside, i’ve not been doing anything too new. same ol’ me. mocks are approaching next month and it’s time to be a nerd. a very nerdy nerd. lol. which doesn’t mean it’s a bad thing. i really hope to do well and especially since this is the first external exam for the first semester.

hmm, hum dee dumm. just contented for now.
gotta go to bed now and will update properly soon.
omg, mosquitoes!!! please, go a.w.a.y now!

-take me to an island now-

Tomorrows

hmm i think the week is passing by very quickly. if i shall say so, don’t you think? or perhaps by saying that it is, it actually will. *laughs* anyway, i only have two classes tomorrow which is precisely why wednesdays and fridays are my favourite! there’s also this child development psychology club thingy that’s having its AGM tomorrow so i think i’ll probably be attending it. i’m not sure if i should since i joined quite a few clubs already but i’ll just go and check it out. good idea?

err i don’t know what else to say cause nothing much happened except that classes are okay. trying to love the subjects even more so that they’ll love me too and give me an A. lol. i’m joking! exams are in 3 months and i think it’s good to start studying now. you know this whole thing is so new, so…

october is coming! and i can hardly believe that we’re entering the last few months of the year! seriously, it really flew by this year. maybe because i wasn’t here for the first half. but, really. october and november is gonna be crazy with malaysian studies and moral studies cos then i’ll have classes straight from 8am to 7pm! without breaks in between, oh noesssss. sigh, two whole months of that crap.

"I went to the brink many times. A couple of times I thought

'I'm gone. This is it.' But then you would just keep working.

I think if you're close to the brink and just make sure that

you work twice as hard and put twice as much effort into

everything and the people around you and everything, you

should come through."

-- Gerry Harvey--

Quickie

so, the week is over and it’s back to regular classes. everyone is back unlike classes on thursday and friday which seemed quite empty. yesterday was also the end of HELP MUNC. it certainly met my expectations and it’s a new experience for me. i think the organising committee did a very good job and i’d like to thank them for their efforts :)

nothing much, just a short update. i have a lot on my mind, thinking about sorting some things out or maybe it’s just me trying too hard or worrying too much. anyway, that’s besides the point. blogging is suppose to release my stress and express myself through words, photos and whatnot. so, here goes. just some pictures to share.

isn’t this cute? it’s suppose to flip and flap up and down for the leaves part and the flower is suppose to go right and left. but, apparently it’s not doing it’s so called job in calming my soul because it isn’t exposed to enough sunlight.

this is gonna be the first year that i’ll celebrate mooncake festival alone :( jelly mooncake is my preferred choice because it’s lighter in texture and taste. personally i feel the authentic flavoured mooncakes are enjoyable with tea but since i want to have more servings, i prefer just munching away jelly mooncakes. lol.

first ever MUN by HELP. secretary generals are jonathan yong and james yap.

a newbie’s experience.

first day formal wear. when i was much younger, i always fancied working in an office because i thought the corporate ladies looked so awesome in their attire. hahaha.

the first day was basically spent lobbying and coming up with a resolution.

jia yu and jia yi. haha. she’s a fellow SASA-rian too :)

day 2 was the longest day ever from 8 in the morning till 7 at night. the HRC discussed about crisis in honduras and nicaragua and the very ‘interesting’ topic of halting of persecution against homosexuals and the promotion of their rights. it’s definitely the longest ever i have been involved in a homo discussion. before i went to bed, words like hetero, homo, delegates, amendment, striken out and etc kept ringing in my head. omg. homotopia. LOL.

enough is said.

third and final day outfit.

delegate of rwanda from DISEC giving his speech on the peacekeeping troops resolution. plenary session was interesting as it neared the end cos there was a very constructive debate on the homo resolution. in the end, the homo reso was passed despite it being inconclusive of what kind of policy should the muslim nationd adopt seeing as to homosexuality is prohibited in the syariah law. that said, it’s a good reso.

Sierra Leon, New Zealand and Lebanon. we’re still learning the ropes to MUN-ing.

djibouti! the most attractive female delegate in HRC.

Mexico, New Zealand, Korea and Venezuela! notice the height increase lol. mere coincidence!

hahah, ilyana looks so cute here.

that’s all for now and i’m gonna go rest and do my math work and study chemistry. so much for mondays :(

"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're
supposed to help you discover who you are."

-- Bernice Johnson Reagon--

Yes?

currently listening to ‘whole again’ by atomic kitten. not the latest song but somehow i fell in love with the rhythm. the lyrics are really meaningful, well at least to me. today is tiring for me seeing that the first day of HELP MUNC lasted till about seven at night. luckily, i didn’t have to walk home like i usually do, all thanks to casey the gorgeous! thank youuu.

some days when i feel slightly down, i click on the play button and then re-click again on others. the musical tunes instantly lift my spirits up. even if it’s boom boom pow or whole again. hah! i’m so easily pleased. is that a good thing?

do i like my life now? yes.

is there anything that can be improved? yes.

am i doing all the right things? yes.

yes, i want this to happen.

yes, i think i know i am right.

yes, i want to believe i am not wrong.

gahh i am so bored and found this webcam thingy!

okay, smile properly this time.

hmm how’s life if i were a bunny? hop hop!

-white blouse credits to stasya for allowing me to borrow it, thanks!-

An Itch

i don’t really have a clue as to why i tend to replay words she said or even at that matter words many people said over and over again until it annoys me so that i have to put this down in writing. perhaps by putting them down into a solid form-words, they can somehow be left alone or at least i hope.i can always revisit them at a later time if i wish to.

she said very casually with much conviction, “children, do you realise what we want to do is always not what we are doing?” i am bugged by what she had to say the other day because it’s so uncommonly true. and that we always chase after happiness. why can’t we just be? just exist? instead of looking forward to something we may never achieve or even if we do, just a temporary state? it might sound depressing but isn’t that how it all is? somehow i blurted that it’s human nature to seek, look forward to progression, to which she replied “are you sure, is it so? or is it how you have been conditioned to be?” and we all stared blankly into her face. she had a smile on her face. and she does this every other day. we all love it. she knows we do.

i shall not digress. it is true. despite centuries, life is still the same. people still go on and on about happiness, the future and the ‘overly-rated’-life. oh and death. to which i think it’s true that we all born to mourn for ourselves.

“why then can the caged bird still sing?”. i saw the other day at the bookstore a book titled “i know why the caged bird sings”. i was tempted to buy it at the same time surprised that it should be presented to me at such an opportune moment. just as we were done studying that particular poem.

i walked out of the place without that book. maybe at the back of my head, i want to answer it myself. “why then can the caged bird still sing”. hold that thought and i will come back.

i want to wrap myself into an endless curve, seal myself into a bubble and just sink in there for a moment. looking at this, i can already be there. which is why i love photos.

-when you want to be, just be. when you want it, just get it. chase what you want to chase and be content with yourself. and a wise friend once said,”what’s the difference, at the end of the day, we all put on our trouser one leg at a time”. unless of course you’re a weirdo. -

*laughs*

A Million Teardrops

have you ever noticed how they all looked lifeless and dull, never flashing a smile when it’s raining? i wonder why. somewhere along my travelling, as i splashed my way down the road, i smiled. i flew as lightly as a bird. perhaps i realized that even if we were the birds in the cage, we can still sing. let it rain, let it be. the breeze swept softly across my face and i was blissful. epiphanies emerge at the weirdest moments. i was happy in my own little bubble, maybe just a dream. as i was nearing, haphazard thoughts flashed by in my mind and i couldn’t seem to address them accordingly. i think it’s the rain. but this time, i smiled.

The Weaker Sex

it has always dawned on me that, to be a woman in the past, ie: 17th, 18th century is a complete misfortune. striped off all independence, well to some extent-a woman has no right to a proper education, is always deemed the weaker sex and what’s worse to be dependent on a man for a living. metaphorically living behind their shadows. but today, i realized that it isn’t all that bad after all, that life as a woman in the 18th/19th century isn’t doomed to fail.

in literature class, we discussed issues which came to mind when we talked about Charlotte Perkins Stetson Gilman, the rightful author of ‘The Yellow Wall Paper’, and one of our many ‘off-topics discussion’ concerned the feminist movement and what womens’ life were like back then. ‘when in doubt, think twice’. what you may think to be true may not necessarily be so after some contemplation. true, women were the weaker sex at that age of time. but the question remains. what happens after we achieve equality, then do we maintain or do we rise above the males and be superior? even then, women back in those days were very well respected and protected despite their position in society. and men were very different too-their roles and what is expected of them. omg am i even making any sense? okay, what i’m tyring to point out is that despite having the right to be treated equally as equal to that of the opposite sex, there are certainly drawbacks just as in everything else. don’t you agree that women these days are always objectified? well then again, it also depends if you allow yourself to be so. the choice is yours.

College and such

college life is quite what i had expected it to be, at least for the first week. it’s too early to conclude but i believe it’ll be great. thus begins another chapter in my book of life. so, i’m taking GCE A Levels at HELP UC and i’ve registered for Mathematics, Chemistry, Economics and English Literature. i hope the subjects will be a great combination and so far i’m liking them because of the lecturers and the nature of the respective subjects itself. pray that this enthusiasm don’t die down. pleaseeee stay with me.

what else? oh i joined United Nations club today. sounds interesting and i hope it would be enjoyable in the next few weeks to come. going to college again tomorrow to attend toastmasters club meeting. will see if i decide to join that as well. sigh, more walking.